.... is different from moving on.
Moving on implies forgetting what is past.
Moving forward is more difficult. It involves carrying the past with you while you walk forward one step at a time. Never forgetting, but continuing to breathe and live.
Some days I can accomplish this.
Some days I can't.
I'm getting there.
I'm not gonna lie .... yesterday was hard. I really, really didn't want to get out of bed. I was supposed to play tennis but had a good friend that stepped in for me when I called to say I couldn't.
Instead I went with another friend to see "New Moon", the 2nd movie in the "Twilight" series. It seemed that I was more in the mood for vampires, werewolves and death than just death itself. It fit my mood.
But ..... yesterday is gone and I survived. I am now past two years. Who would've thought?
Not me.
No way.
There were many days when I really didn't think I'd survive the week, let alone the months and years.
But here I am .... still breathing. Still walking.
Most days.
I am blessed.
I am thankful.
Most days.
I am thought of.
I am loved.
Every day.
Thank you, Peeps, for thinking of me and for praying me through these days.
It makes a difference.
Trust me.
Happy Saturday.
:)
10 comments:
A good distinction: "moving forward" vs. "moving on." You are loved. You are not forgotten.
God bless!
Your post blessed my heart. You are right right moving forward and moving on are two separate things. You are truly moving forward and your walk has blessed me and inspired me. May you and yours have a blessed Lord's day today and may you have a blessed week this week. I am sure with all of the children home, your heart will be overflowing. Blessings, hugs and prayers..Mary Lou
So glad you made it thru the day. When that day rolls around for me, it's almost like time stops. (15 years since my dad passed, I was 14)You want it to go by fast, so you can get on to a new day, but sometimes it does the heart some good to just stop and remember the good times. We'll keep praying you thru those days, and enjoy Christmas with the kids!
Hi Janine, I can't imagine...
Just thinking that I almost threw away my family is gut wrenching. I've been coming here to read and you inspire me. I'm really struggling to adapt to my new reality. The kids look so good! all grown up! Goodness, where does time go?
Love,
Susie~
Hi Janine,
I've been a lurker here for quite some time and have never commented. Not because I didn't want to, but I figured I probably didn't have anything useful to say.
I just wanted to let you know that you are a brave lady and even your lurkers often think of you. I live in NZ - so you have readers around the world cheering you on.
I hope that you and your family have a special time at Christmas together.
Wilm in NZ
Hmmm...that's a good point, between the moving forward & moving on. I'm sorry that your day was rough, but I'm glad it's over. And I'm glad you made it through. Praying for you! (and no, still no baby yet here!!!). :)
Haven't been on for a few days and just looked through the pics of you and Jim. It made me miss him all over and remember his voice and laugh and so many special times. He was a presence, that's for sure. Loving you and your kids from afar. May you find joyful moments while they are home and after....
SO true.
Thinking of you... xoxo
nice post. thanks.
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