.... in spite of the fact that I've been awake since 3:30 this morning.
Sleep these days is something else that I long for but can't seem to obtain. But I'm getting a bit used to it and just give in and get up rather than toss and turn.
So I forgot to tell you that Son #3 has his driver's permit now. I cannot believe that my baby is old enough to drive! I haven't driven with him yet ..... (I really hate the first few drives .... I always slam on the imaginary brake and cling to the door on the right side). I'm planning on going out with him this weekend .... please keep us in your prayers. :)
I plan to hit the tennis courts tomorrow, weather permitting. We've had more than our share of rain so tennis has been sparse. I definitely need to get out and hit that little yellow ball really, really hard. Hopefully I won't hit anyone in the process.
Speaking of tomorrow .... it's Wednesday, so you know what that means ..... ask away!
Yes, today was a better day than yesterday. Hopefully tomorrow will be OK, too, but I've learned to just take the days one at a time.
Heck, that's an improvement from just being able to go one minute, one breath at a time.
Right?
Happy Tuesday, Peeps ..... and thanks for all of the encouraging comments .... again.
:)
3 comments:
Hi Janine,
Do you suppose our sleeping pattern has anything to do with the time of year? I know for me, recently, I seem to wake at 2 am, can't get back to sleep, now I'm waking at 10:30pm and 2am. It's driving me nuts!! The thougths seem to come in full force, so there is no need to try and get back to sleep, it is better to just get up! I've even tried taking tylenol pm, and that doesn't even work. It did when John first died, but maybe I thought it was and I sleep only from pure exhaustion. I sure wish you the best. Hugs, Lorry
Before your husband died you probably had some favorite Christmas movies. Those flicks could be bittersweet now, but it would be interesting to know what your favorties were (are).
Janine:
I am sorry about the sleep patterns. Such a frustrating part of the grief process.
I am glad that you had a better day, but I know it is a continual roller coaster ride.
Hoping you got out to play some tennis. It's good to "hit" something and tennis balls are appropriate. ;) We have had so much rain here in NC. I am wishing that we would get a few days with some bright sunshine -- maybe it would help my mood.
My question: Have you decorated the tree? Mine is still sitting in the bucket of water outside probably losing a bunch of needles. It will be looking like a "Charlie Brown" tree by the time I get it in my house. Want to go artificial, but my kids won't hear of it. That's one tradition they don't want changed.
You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers as you approach the 2nd year. May God hold you close -- and to Lorry, also, who commented on a previous post. This "club" is no fun!!!
Love you,
Beth
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