Those two words describe my world at the moment. Very topsy turvy.
Just this morning I was reading in bed, having finally been sucked in to the world that is "Twilight", when I heard one of my doors being unlocked, my garage being walked into and then watched as one of the workers walked through my bedroom with a mumbled, "Excuse me", into my bathroom. Welcome to my world. Come on in .... don't mind me.
That's not the only part of my life that is topsy turvy. It would appear that I am now officially "dating". Sigh. I haven't dated for 28 years.... and oh my word, how I hate to type that number! Sheesh, am I old or what?!!!
Anyway .... we went on our second date this week and had a good time. We went to dinner and a movie. We both thought that the new Robert DeNiro movie was a comedy ..... ummmmm, not so much. But it was still good, just not what we expected. We went out for ice cream after that ... a date that Daughter #1 referred to as "1950's adorable".
Speaking of Daughter #1 and my topsy turvy life .... I cannot believe that I am receiving .... and accepting ..... dating advice from my 25 year old daughter! I will forever treasure the wise words, "Remember, Mom .... you don't owe him anything after the first date." Brings a tear to your eye, doesn't it?
So yes, I am in the dating world. The thought of that is enough to make me hyperventilate. It's scary being in an unknown world, not knowing how to act or what to do or say.
But I do have some comfort in knowing that he feels just as topsy turvy as I do. We both seem to be feeling our way along, quite blindly, but going one step at a time.
Another positive thing is that this comes at a good time in my life. As I am heading towards Jim's 2 year deathiversary (yes, I made that word up) it's been nice to have something to distract me from that a bit. Not that the pain is not there, or the sadness is gone, but I have an additional thing upon which to focus. And he totally understands because we have a lot in common.
So .... things are topsy turvy. But I guess I'm ok with that. There could be worse things than topsy turvy .... right? I could be totally bowled over by wave after wave of grief, or sitting in a dark cave of grief ... both of which have happened .... many, many times.
I think I'll take topsy turvy .... at least it's interesting.
:)
Happy Saturday, Peeps.
13 comments:
Sounds like you're doing well, then, if a little topsy turvy. :) Better than tipsy, I guess. :) Anyway, I'm glad for you & your dating, that's great that you have something to focus on in this season. Praying for you! :)
I get that.. was 23+ years for me when I began to date again.. I remember the weirdness of it all.. and the teenage craziness as well :)
Wishing joy to you in this new season!
I think topsy turvy is a much better alternative to the waves of grief. Will be praying for you this week...and the next. Blessings, prayers and hugs.
Just wait until all 6 are home and the workers come. You'll be very topsy turvy.
Lisa B.
So glad that you have done date 2 and that it went well. I can so imagine having that talk with one of my daughters if I were in that situation. Glad that we have daughters to have frank discussions with.
My dear sister,
I'm sure this has to be very strange for you, especially since you never really did the "dating scene" before. However, maybe it's just me, but you seem...ummm...(trying to find the right words)...
like you're "living" again. I hope it's not just me. I like to "hear" you enjoying things...and looking forward. Through the past two years, I have hoped and prayed that one day, you would find joy again. Don't worry, I don't expect it...it's just that my heart soars when you sound even marginally happy! You are such an amazing woman, and I'm blessed that you're my sister:)
So so so happy and excited for you!! You deserve happiness almost more than anyone I know!!!
Wow Janine,
The things we have in common. My sister-in-law and I went to see the same movie lastnight! Neither of us really liked it though. I had a very bad day and really didn't need that to add to it. I am so glad you have a distraction to help you through this month. Sorry, I don't think calling your date a distraction is really the proper word. I am glad that you have something something to look forward to. I hope all goes well for you. I know how very difficult this all is. It makes me wonder what the next year will bring for me. You are going on year two, me year one. Hugs to you, Lorry
Janine,
You deserve happiness. I hope you find it... in whatever way the rambling road of life takes you. So glad God placed us at the same MOPS table.
Jessica
Dating!
It's SO weird being out there again- isnt it?
You go girl-enjoy. Life is much too short as well all know
( J: Wow. 2 years! I am almost at 3...I remember when we counted by months... I should be in Houston over X-mas break-would you have a coffee with a heathen? :P)
SJW -- I'd LOVE to meet for coffee!!! And thanks for the smile. :)
cool! i'll update/email when I have a more set schedule :)
The resumption of "dating" after we we have gone thru (SJW, too, I know) is difficult to approach -- I felt like I was stepping off a gangplank! My sister (widowed for over 6 years, when she started dating again) and I have both found nice men who appreciate us just the way we are. But not easy to date again, at this age. Many blessings to you -- I hope you and SJW can meet up. {{Hugs}}
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