Thursday, January 14, 2010

Another Funeral ....

.... another widow.
I went to a funeral of a man in our church today. He died suddenly on Monday.
It's brought back a lot of memories.
But I'm OK.
In fact, I'm better than OK.
Way better.

It was difficult to sit through the service, in fact I stepped out early .... couldn't sit through the last two songs, but I did it.
I'm sad for her.
Very sad.
But I'm good.

Life is moving forward .... and I'm starting to feel happy again.
Yes, happy.
Not just content, which is all I was hoping for ..... but happy.

I still miss Jim.
I still wish he were here.
But he's not.
So he'd be happy for me.
Happy that I'm cared for .... happy that I'm supported.
Happy that I'm happy.

Life is still hard .... some days are difficult.
But I'm OK with that.

Better than OK.
:)



7 comments:

Mary Lou said...

I predict you will be a blessing to this woman.God has used you so mightily in the past two years..He will use you now.So,glad things are going so well for you. Blessings on your week end.

Mom said...

Good evening my darling daughter.
I'm sorry to hear there was another death in your church. I'm sure the funeral was difficult, but I'm glad it wasn't as difficult as it would have been a while back. I'm happy to see your post. It sounds like your life is going much better than just a few months ago. That makes me a very happy mom.

I love you very much.

purejoy said...

weeee!! great news that you could survive a funeral like that and still talk about happiness. so thankful for your mending heart.
jim would be thrilled, i'm sure.

Leslie said...

I sense fresh green growth. It's beautiful, isn't it?

nat said...

Well it was a cold rainy, dreary Friday afternoon until I read your post about you being happy- now I am praising God and feel all warm and happy for you my friend.
I love you!

kc bob said...

I understand.. it took me a long time after my first wife died to be able to attend a funeral service.

kdawnmartin said...

I love you!