For a moment in time, I thought it was for the best.
Because I listened to something other than my heart.
Thank you for the emails and the Twitters.
Thank you for telling me that I matter.
Funny .... how complete "strangers" can make you feel mattered more than people who supposedly love you.
Praying for you tonight! I'm sorry it's been a rough week, I hate that there is another "member" in the "club", and I hope you are loved on by the friends and family you have close by this weekend... Thank you for sharing your heart with us all, it means more than you know!
ReplyDeleteThank you, Jamison. Lots and lots of prayers are needed and very much appreciated.
ReplyDeleteI'm finding that I am being loved by the people who really count.
And I'm not being loved by people who I thought counted.
But life is all about lessons .... and I'm learning. I've already been through the worst thing I could ever go through ... so I'll be ok.
Especially with prayers.
Thank you so much ..... your words and prayers matter more than you know.
:)
Glad you are listening to your heart. You know I love you. xo
ReplyDeleteSo glad to hear from you! I am a mere creeper yet am so inspired by you, your life, your children. I was worried about you, yet felt wierd because I had no idea how to reach out, to help you. As if you would I know who I was if I did.
ReplyDeleteAll I have is that I am praying for my unmet Houston friend, from your unmet OKC friend.
Cari
so glad that you are back. I was worried when I found your blog and FB missing! Been praying for you and your family and whatever it is that you are going through. And will continue to do so.
ReplyDeleteWish I could do or say more - you DO matter, you have helped me in so many ways - but please know that lots prayers are coming your way from NJ.
I am sorry you felt the need to take down your blog. I know you have been dealing with so many things. Just know you matter. . .especially to God. Take care of yourself and lean on Him.
ReplyDeleteI, too, am sorry that you're struggling. I'm NOT sorry that I missed the time your blog was down. I would have freaked, then I probably would have shown up on your doorstep because I do have, you know....YOUR ADDRESS! Lol! You gave it to me! Anyway...don't stop blogging or feel the need to stop. We do love you!
ReplyDeleteMollie
I am one who doesn't comment much, but am a faithful reader. I have been so busy for a few days that I haven't checked your blog and last night I had a few minutes and tired to check your blog and it was gone and I was SO sad. I feel like I *know* you and would have been so sad to have you suddenly disappear without knowing everything was OK!!! Hang in there.
ReplyDeleteI miss you when you don't blog. I have been lurking since my husband died 3 years ago. Some days when I can't face leaving the house or even getting out of bed, I still look to see if you have blogged. Keep em coming cause we all still need you.
ReplyDeleteHope things are going better for you soon.
Linda
I wish I was there to hug you. Being so far away from you is so hard sometimes. I love you!
ReplyDeleteI, too, was extemely worried when you shut things down, Janine. Just know that I'm thinking about you,,
ReplyDeleteJacquelyn
Janine,
ReplyDeleteI am a long time lurker and find it difficult to reach out both in person and on line. I was quite worried when I could not find your blog. I need you to know how important your writing is to me and my continued well being in this 5 year long journey (so far). I identify most closely with you of the various writers and sites I have come across. As soon as I saw my husband was dead when I arrived at the hospital, Ive known with every cell in my body that my 3 kids and I will not only be fine, but thrive. The kids are great, but it has cost me dearly. I lost my job and every important relationship except one in my life to ensure their success. The reason I know I am not alone, the reason I have hope for my future, the reason I know the bad days are to be expected and temporary, is in large part due to your writing. I feel we are doing this together. So please know you have your own personal cheerleader in New York, and your sadness and frustrations are shared in spirit and my prayers and good wishes are with you always
Marian
Marian,
ReplyDeleteYour words brought tears to my eyes. Not sad tears, but grateful ones.
Thank you.
Thank you for writing and telling me how you feel. Thank you for such kind and loving words.
And thank you for cheering me on from NY. I'm glad you're here.
:)