Here I am again.....

....sitting in a hospital, waiting to say good bye to someone I love.  Only this time I know that's what I'm doing.  No surprises, no shock --  no lies about 90%.  Not this time.  So why am I crying so hard?  Because it's her & not me? Yes, that's certainly part of it.  And for all of my family. We'd like the pain to stop.  Now.  So we wait.  She was able to finally speak to us today -- and she did-- a lot.  She told each of us how much she loved us , appreciated us and was proud of each of us.  One on one.  I made her promise to hug Jim very, very hard for me and to tell him I love him-- so very much.  She promised  to do that.  Then I told her the last thing I told Jim:   "I love you and I'll see you soon."                                         
This time I really know what I'm saying.