My Mom, D, Dad, Uncle D and Aunt C all left this morning. The house seems very quiet. J, L and S are leaving in the morning. I'm glad we get to see them in about a month.
We all went to the lake today and we spread the rest of Jim's ashes. Even little S helped us. The fact that she spread her uncle's ashes may come back to haunt her in the future, but hey .... she's not my kid. :)
The kids helped me do it. Two of the daughters had to use Dixie cups to manage it (yes, I had to dip the cups in for them ... sheesh). They shall remain nameless, but let me just say that Daughter #2 did NOT need a cup.
There was no chicken-feeding this time, but it was pretty breezy so some people did get hit. Sorry about that. It takes a bit to get used to the wind direction. What can I say? I'm a slow learner.
Anyway, that part is now over. I am very much at peace with having done that. Our place at the lake was his favorite spot on earth. And mine. I told the kids that this is what I want when it's time for me to finally leave. And when it happens I hope they are ecstatic for me .... and for Jim.
OK, now I'm going to promote a book. It's one of the best books I've ever read so I want everyone to read it. I'm not gaining anything by doing this --- other than the knowledge that it will touch your life forever.
It's called "Same Kind of Different As Me" (www.samekindofdifferentasme.com). Some of you have already read it so you could add your comments here, too.
I was blessed enough to go to a fund raiser dinner where the two authors were speakers. And even more blessed to sit at the head table and speak with these two gentlemen throughout the evening.
Here is a picture of them with a few of my friends:
On the way to the lake today I drove with Daughter #3, who had to drive on to summer school after our visit there. She had me listen to a John Mayer song (I'm taking her to his concert in August and I don't even know what he sings!). She said that I would like this song. She was right, of course, and knew that I would put it on my blog. So here it is:
In Repair
Too many shadows in my room
Too many hours in this midnight
Too many corners in my mind
So much to do to set my heart right
Oh, it’s taken so long
I could be wrong, I could be ready
Oh, but if I take my heart’s advice
I should assume it’s still unsteady
I am in repair
I am in repair
Stood on the corner for a while
To wait for the wind to blow down on me
Hoping it takes with it my old ways
And brings some brand new luck upon me
Oh, it’s taken so long
I could be wrong, I could be ready
Oh, but if I take my heart’s advice
I should assume it’s still unsteady
I am in repair
I am in repair
And now I’m walking in the park
And all of the birds, they dance below me
Maybe when things turn green again
It will be good to say you know me
Oh, it’s taken so long
I could be wrong, I could be ready
Oh, but if I take my heart’s advice
I should assume it’s still unsteady
Oh yeah, I’m never really ready, yeah
Oh yeah, I’m never really ready, yeah
I’m in repair
I’m not together but I’m getting there (x6)
--John Mayer
This is me. I'm in repair. And I do hope that "when things turn green again it will be good to say you know me".
And I'll feel repaired. Not the same. Never the same. There will always be a huge, deep scar across and in my heart. But maybe .... just maybe .... some day ...... I'll be repaired.
5 comments:
Good morning my darling daughter. It was so good to be able to spend time with you. It was so hard to leave. But I know I'll be back soon. I love you so much and can't wait to be closer to you.
I, too, read "Same Kind of Different as Me", thanks to my darling daughter. And I, too, found it to be the best book I ever read. I have passed it on to friends who also had the same reaction. A totaly wonderful book.
Take care of yourself, J, and know that you are in my prayers daily and often. Again, I love you so much. See you soon.
I am thankful for our God, who is the master at healing. And I am thikning that it's good to know you now, even if things aren't green.
Janine, Spencer looks so handsome in his cap and gown! Thank you so much for giving daughter #1 her diploma, I can't wait to get the picture! I think you did a great job and most certainly did not look pregnant at all in your gown (and I had binoculars so I know for sure). May has been one tough month, but I think you proved that even with tough times ahead you will come through it with the love and support of your friends and family. By the way, I loved your cheering section!
Rebecca
GOOD song!
And GREAT book (I finished it in a day)! Watch out, though... because this book will change your life.
I love you, Mommy! And I miss you already!
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxo
Yes, some day you will be repaired. Keep looking to the only One who can do it and He will. Blessings on your week.
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