Two mind-numbing meetings down, one to go (tomorrow). Cried again at the beginning -- then did OK.
No news yet on the latest CT scan --- the surgeon wasn't in. Maybe tomorrow.
My brother-in-law left tonight. He worked hard today. I'm sure he's mentally and physically exhausted.
My wonderful friend from Okla is staying another day or two to help with more of the financial stuff. I love her.
I don't think I'm going to make a trip Oklahoma. We will find out tomorrow when the surgery will be, but I don't think I can do it. I get physically ill whenever I think about it. I feel like I should go but I also feel as if I've hit my limit. I may have to admit defeat on this one (another thing I hate).
Two people were contacted at "the" university today --- no apologies were offered. The woman (and her higher up) would not even admit that anything was inappropriately handled. That's "just the way they do things". NIce, huh? We're trying the president's office tomorrow.
I'd love to crawl into my bed and stay there for a long time.
6 comments:
Janine, I am so sorry! I don't blame you for making the decision not to go to Oklahoma. Some time you have to make a hard decision - and yet - it is what you have to do to take care of yourself!
My love and continued prayers!
Malinn
okay, B----- Bites!!!! Not very Christian of them. I am so sorry daughter #3 has to deal with this and I am so so sorry that you have to deal with this.
I think its a good idea (and not defeat) that you not make the trip to OK.
B-i-L has been working hard and so has V, I am so glad they were both able to come be with you and the kids, and I am so grateful that V is able to stay a few more days! I like her! She would be a great addition to our "thursday evenings", if she lived closer. Did anyone ever tell you that you have great taste in friends?
Now I'm trying to make you laugh! can you tell??
Love you, K
Janine,
Do not feel defeated. You need to do what is best for you at this time. Prayers are being lifted up for you all day by so many people. I hope you can feel strengthened by them. You and the kids are in my thoughts and prayers constantly.
Cheryl
Hey K, she has great taste in siblings too! *grin*
Janine...you don't feel badly for ONE minute about not going. This is the time that you take care of YOU. When you're tired...sleep. When you need nourishment, eat something that you love. Pamper yourself a little. I know that sounds like such a ridiculous suggestion in the midst of heart-wrenching sadness, but remember that it's what Jim would want for you. He would want you to be healthy...and he would want you to take care of yourself. I'll bet that he'd even send you for a great massage just so you could relax a bit. Don't do ANYTHING right now just because it's what someone else expects...if it doesn't work for you. If that's a problem for anyone...you just call me and I'll come and play Guido and break their knee-caps!
(Ha! You know me, I'd really do it!)
I love you Sis...so very, very much. You're still on my heart every day.
Lisanne
I talked to dad last night and he has been reading your blog everyday and wanted to know why he wasn't included in the posse/lynch mob. So just for the record dad would be a willing participant no questions asked and you know he's got "friends" (finger on the side of the nose)that can take care of what ever might need taken care of. You's know what I'm talkin' bout? LOL love you daddy!
So one meeting left today and you'll be done with it for a while at least. As for Oklahaoma, I wouldn't consider it defeat. It is totally understandable with how you are feeling. Satan is working over time on you and loves to see you like this. But with only a few more hurdles your going to be pushing him to th side soon because the light will be and is getting some what lighter. I love you sis and just pray that you gain your strenght back soon. I'm trying to see if it at all possible for me to come and visit before April. That's just to far away! I'll let ya know what I come up with.
Hello..you dont know me but I just recently got married to Becky's son Matt(from oklahoma). I have
been reading your blog and just want to let you know that you and your family are in my
prayers daily. :o)
I'm so sorry your having to deal with the extra stuff such as the school situation. We are praying and just know that God will give you strength that you never knew you had.
Christina M.
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