Daughters #2 & #3 go in tomorrow for their CT scans, complete with barium and IVs. Daughter #1 will have hers on Monday. Then the boys will follow. I received some info about another family who's gone through this exact thing. One sibling has already had heart surgery and now one of the children has to have it. I am trying so hard not to panic but I hardly have the energy to function, let along control any emotions.
I want to believe that God would not do this to us. But I don't trust that He won't.
My children want to believe that God would not do this to us. But they don't trust that he won't.
Their father is gone.
Forever.
How do we learn to trust again?
How?
9 comments:
I am so proud that you got the ball rolling on testing your children. Your family is taking control of the situation and not letting the situation take control of you. You will be gathering information on your children. With this information you can then make the best informed decision for each one of your children.
You all are lifted up in prayer. I don't have any words. Everything I want to write sounds like a "pat" answer... sending love and light and strength and faith and hope... Wendee
Don't be scard (easy to say from the chicken sibbliing) It's just a test. A test that could save thier lives. If they don't have it GREAT! But if they do then it can be taken care of just like the family you just blogged about. You don't have enough energy to worry about testing and greiving. You need to just stop and breath...oh heck what the *#@% do I know. Your gonna be scared no matter what people tell you, (we are related). Just know that we are all here for you and we are praying for you. We love you.
Good morning my darling daughter. Ok, so we have our work cut out for us in the prayer department. I've asked everyone that works for me to add the kids to their prayer lists. And if they don't have a prayer list...well they do now. I refuse to believe this is not going to turn out the way we want it to. I totally understand your trust issues at this point, but DO trust that prayers are going up all over the country on behalf of you and the kids. You are loved beyond what words can express. Take care of yourself (I know, I know, I say that all the time) because we who love you really need you to do that. I will see you soon. Mom
I'm already praying! Love you all!!
D
Hi Janine,
The kids and your whole family are in my prayers as they begin their testing process....more hugs to you from across the miles Janine!
Jenni B.
It is a roller coast ride but it your case it just doen't seem to go up but small bits at the time. Remember there a four stages to face a crisis 1. Denial 2. Bargining 3. Anger 4. Acceptance. Just take each stage one at the time. I learn this after fighting cancer twice. God will help you do this. Please know that you and your family are in my prayers daily. I wish I could help in some small way. Just know you have many friends wanting to help in any way.
Judy T.
At least you will know and be able to plan for things. That's part of the battle. But, the fact that you have to go through all of this (or any of it actually) totally sucks. I'm so sorry.
xoxo Mary Jo
There are just no words. I love you. K
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