Today was a pretty decent day (in spite of the fact that I have another flaming infection, mostly unbeknownst to me -- I really need to find out what language my body speaks).
I played tennis today with my Monday team and it was good. I actually had moments of feeling happy. I guess when you let go of anger it makes a little room for something else.
I also signed up for the April Kenya trip today. I realized a couple of weeks ago that I need to go back. I have to go back.
I know that some people have expressed an interest in going (but with the ADD and memory loss I now seem to have, I'm doing well to remember that much), so if you're reading this and you think you might want to go, or would like more info, e-mail me. There are about 10 spots left.
Mom did not leave tonight -- the flight was over-booked. So she's booked for tomorrow night. I'm glad. So is she.
I think the fact that I can't think about Jim is starting to affect my dreams. I must be suppressing thoughts that come out in my sleep. I don't remember what I dreamed last night, but it involved him and I woke up crying, real tears. Sigh
So while I am glad for the relatively good day, I know that it won't stay like this. Each day is not a continuation of the day before. But sometimes that's a good thing.
And I will just appreciate the good while it's here.
8 comments:
Lifting you and the kids up daily.
Hugs,Darcie
I would love to go to Kenya with you but it's kinda outta the budget right now but one day I will go with! That would be an awsome experience to share with you! What are the dates of the Kenya trip? Glad to hear mom had to stay another day, I'm sure she was just in tears because she had to stay!:) I'm sure she misses work. I love you sis! Try and have a good day. I can't wait to come to visit and see you!
My heart skipped a beat when I read that you are going back to Kenya. I think that God has a big plan for you. Or maybe for Kenya. Either way, his plans for you and his plans for Kenya have intersected and I can't help but believe that something big is coming. I'm praying for you.
I'm glad you are going back to Kenya!!!! And glad you were able to have a good tennis day. The physical activity is so good for you and maybe it will help clear your head a little bit. Thinking of you...
Love,
Gina
Janine, so thankful that you saw a little happiness for a few moments! And so glad that you were able to pick up that Bible! God can handle all the anger that you want to give HIM! I think that it's us that can't handle it! I know I can't possibly understand what you are going through - but I know that I care and hurt for you! And continue to pray for you!
My love,
Malinn
Janine,
I remember the emotion and joy that you expressed as you related your travels to Africa. You are needed, and God is leading you back to a place that you have fond memories of the people that you touched and who were able to touch you. I know I will be ready to hear Trip #2 and all the way God blessed you with His love. I wished I too could go--a couple of obligations right now. Maybe next Fall...I would love to go.
Hi Janine,
So great to hear about your planned trip to Kenya. The first one was amazing to read about and the pictures told such a story. Also, while I know life is a rollercoaster, it's good to hear that there have been some good days lately. You and the kids are always in our thoughts and prayers....on both the good days and bad ones.
Love to all,
Jenni Baeder
I'm so glad you are having a few not-so-horrible moments. Love you! Mary Jo
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