Have you ever had anyone in your life that you love and yet hate? Someone whom you love and would do anything for but who causes you more pain than you ever thought possible?
Hate and love are separated by an amazingly thin line. Love energizes you but hate zaps every ounce of energy from you.
I find it interesting that you can have both of those emotions at the same time. Especially since you never hear anyone admit that about someone they're supposed to love. "Good" people would never admit that. "Good" people would be shocked that you would even whisper that, let alone say it.
It sounds very windy tonight.
Or is that the sound of whispering?
9 comments:
oh dear i don't know what to say, but how can that be? I always have something to say :) sometimes there certainly is a very fine line between love and hate (i've experienced this firsthand...) and it usually comes when the person we love is hurting us intensely and seemingly without remorse. I know you've heard the old 'hate the sin and love the sinner' and i do believe that these kind of things, these intense battles are not flesh and blood but against the forces and powers and principalities of the dark world (Eph 6:12). i really believe that when we see things to hate in people we love it's not them, it's not their essence but it's a spiritual battle they are struggling with and the yukky parts are coming out. that does not mean the people don't have responsibility for their actions or words though.
I hate to admit it, but I understand COMPLETELY what you mean. I've actually felt that way throughout my life on many occasions. It isn't a good feeling...but it's there. The good news is that it usually resolves itself over time, because love always wins in the long run.
I'm sorry Sis. I wish I knew how to make you feel better.
I LOVE you!
Lis
A good slap always helps me deal with it! =)
No, I don't think "good" people would be shocked by it, I think *anyone* who has a teenager knows exactly what you mean. Only those you love the most can cause such extreme feelings. If you didn't love them so much you'd be ambivalent toward what they do. As I've said to my mother regarding one of my teens "I love her, but I sure don't like her right now".
Rebecca
I'm certain that love/hate relationships abound. I think you nailed it when you mentioned the pain the loved one has caused. I say "loved one" because who else can hurt us the most but those we love the most. Thankfully, experience tells me that as healing takes place, we love more and hate less. I can't imagine your pain, and honestly, I don't want to. But I think of you often and I pray. Thanks for sharing and for being real with your feelings. Love ya, Garnett
The severe sovreignty of God led me through the experience of having people to whom I was pastor conspiring to remove me from their church at any cost - even if the cost was the complete destruction of their church. I am still reassembling the shattered pieces of my personality years later. I do know what you mean. I still cannot say "I HAVE forgiven", only "I AM forgiving", because it is a process. So yeah, I understand. -Rick
I gotta agree with m2k2usa. She has the right attitude. Works for me!!
Still praying for you, the kids and Jim's mom........
AC
I think it is a more common feeling than people are willing to admit. You explain it in your writing so well- you are an incredible writer. JD thinks you should write a book- I agree.
I love you, K
I second that K!! I have told her that a lot. Hey sis, I feel where your coming from. I was hoping that it wasn't just me but to here you say it makes me breath a sigh of relief! 7 more days!! I can't wait! I love you and the bunch. As always you are in my thoughts and prayers!
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