Sunday, February 24, 2008

Pride, love and despair



I am back from college. I must say that you all did a good job discussing the topic of hair color. I'm quite proud of you -- even the weenies who went with anonymous!
And thank you for all of your supportive and loving comments. I never intended to color my hair again --- just wanted to see what people honestly thought. And I did like the comment from M --- yes, it might make me look a few years younger, but big whoop. It's not worth the headache and I do think I've earned every single grey hair. And, it's also a "gift" from my grandfather and I like that. Premature grey -- who would think it's a gift? My biggest problem with it was that I didn't want to look older than Jim. That is now a moot point. In a few months I'll actually be older than Jim --- and boy, am I going to be p***ed when I turn 50 and he never did.
So the girls were wonderful in the big show at college. Daughter #3 had a solo and Daughter #2 sang back up on one number. Yes, I am biased but they were awesome. I was so proud. And so sad. It was one of those times when the sadness physically slammed into me. Right before the curtain went up on their act my heart started palpitating and I felt an overwhelming despair. It was also one of those times when I really couldn't believe Jim wasn't there with me .... and never will be again.
But then the singing started and my girls lit up. I have the most awesome kids.
And they are beautiful -- if I do say so myself. Inside and out.


Oh, and my mom sent me another t-shirt:

Thanks, Mom. :)
So, all in all, a great, yet sad weekend. Thank you to my wonderful friends who went with me. And were proud right along with me.
And so was Jim.

6 comments:

Unknown said...

i love the pic of you all together - what a gorgeous awesome family! Sorry it was hard for you... :( you're always in my prayers.

Anonymous said...

Okay, in the last several weeks something changed on the blog setup. I used to be able to have moni b said . . . on top and now it says anonymous. I tried a few things but then I get bumped off. So I just sign at the end now. I noticed alot of other people are doing the same thing.

. . . Moni B

Anonymous said...

Moni,
I think you need to be signed into your Gmail account in order to have your name displayed,this is the only way the blog site can recognize who you are (unless you have a blog on the same network- and you are signed into that?) otherwise you are automaticaly considered "anonymous".
See if that works??

J, I'm so glad I was able to see the girls with you this weekend- the were awesome!! Thanks so much for letting me tag a long!

and, as you know- I love your hair just the way it is- I think the color of your hair goes perfectly with your skintone- which is also beautiful.
I love you, K

Anonymous said...

If you click the little dot next to "Name/URL", you can then just type in your name (leave the url space blank) and it will show up just as it used to. I don't know why they changed it...it's weird.

The girls are so beautiful Janine. I love the picture of all of you....and I really hope that I can spend some time with you all soon.
Love you tons,
Lis

Anonymous said...

Good morning my darling daughter. Cool shirt! Someone must love you a lot. I know I sure do!

Anonymous said...

...We look like Amazon women next to you in that picture. :)