I'm at work so therefore there's no picture.
I "played" tennis this morning. Not very well. I didn't enjoy it.
Of course I don't enjoy anything as much as I did "before". I wonder if that will get better?
I'd love to enjoy tennis again and not sit and think about quitting and working more.
I think I need the outlet and I love the women.
Guess I'm just tired.
And blue.
Ish.
And I also wish the workers would come back to my house and work! My contractor is in Mexico on vacation. They are, too ..... I guess. On vacation.
And I'm seeing red.
Ish.
I love adding "ish" to a word. Kind of like "yada yada yada".
Kind of having an "ish" day.
An "ish" week.
Oh, who am I kidding? I'm having a stinking "ish" year.
I miss him.
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I read your blog and cry sometimes. I know you are having an "ish" year and I wish I could make it different for you. All I know to say is that I love you so much J and wish things were different for you. It's not fair and I still cannot comprehend what has happened. I still ask why quiet often and still get no answer. I know you know how much I love and miss you and wish I was there with you. I am so greatful you have mom and all of your wonderful friends. Do you feel a trip to Chicago coming on??? Mom said something about the two of you coming up here after the house is done. I would love to see you and hug you! I love you J and pray for you daily! Hugs and Kisses!
Oh my goodness, Janine, reading your posts is at times like looking at myself in a mirror 15-ish years ago.
What I have found is that the things I did with Ed before have not been enjoyable but do-able. Like family get togethers, even my work was a reminder of him because we sold real estate together. And it's not that they aren't enjoyable but just not as rich without him.
You will find that soon there will be lots of "new" things that bring you an intense amount of pleasure again... but it will take a little more time for your days to go from dark navy to baby blue-ish.
Hold tight. Better days are coming!
Luanne
ish-ness stinks! I pray with Luanne that better days start coming sooner rather than later. susan
J-have you ever read the book "Mustard Seeds"? (or ever heard of it?)
If so, please let me know what you thought of it.
I am in a book club and it sounds intersting.
I thought I heard about it before somewhere in your blog. ??
XOXO
Kath
Thanks for continuing to be so geniune and willing to share . . . i s h (add a "t" and move the letters around a bit) and there you have it.
Good one, Moni. Couldn't have said it better myself!
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