I was just thinking the other day that I haven't done that in quite a while.
Meaning that I must be either handling stress better .... or feeling less stress.
And then came today.
I don't ever realize that I'm doing it until my cheek starts hurting, which is usually a few hours into it, I guess.
I went to work today, came home and packed up the Christmas decorations with Son #1, and got the house back in order.
And then noticed that my check is really sore.
So I started to ponder ..... what the heck?!
And then I remembered ......
Tomorrow is Jim's birthday.
I cannot believe the control my subconscious has over my body.
I did not think about tomorrow all day. At least, not what the date means.
But evidently my brain was going 90 to nothing.
Damnit.
I had already planned most of the day out.
The Sons are going to stay home from school tomorrow and the four of us are going to spend the day together.
We'll go to a movie and out to lunch.
And we'll remember Jim/Dad and hopefully laugh a lot.
I hope that it's a good day .... for all of us.
I wish the girls could be here, but I know they'll be thinking of him.
And I really, really hope that I can stop chewing on my cheek.
Sigh ....
3 comments:
oh Janine, it's weird how our sub-conscious gets its way, whatever our conscious mind thinks. I just noticed Jim's memorial site (the link to it) on your blog and read through it and all the photos. What a wonderful lovely man. I wish you strength, light and love for tomorrow (and no more damage to your cheek). Love Boo xx
Janine:
Thinking of you. Today was George's birthday -- I tend to chew my nails. This week my nails are a lot shorter!
Will be praying for you and your family tomorrow.
Much love,
Beth
You and the kids are in my thoughts and prayers and my friend Jim is in my heart forever. What a man.
I love you all,
Nat
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