Well, kinda ..... sorta.
I had my blog published into books.
From the beginning back in 2007 to the end of 2010.
Here's what they look like:
Yep, three-plus years ..... all in print.
Recorded for posterity.
The good, the bad, the very bad.
And the ugly.
The very, very ugly.
So for those of you who've asked, "When are you going to write a book?" ..... I can now answer .... "I already have. Five, in fact."
I think they may end up being the only books I do write .... well, until I publish this year's entries.
Or ..... unless some editor pops in out of the blue, reads my blog and asks if I'm interested in writing. Because I think I might be able to do that.
But to just sit down and write ..... with no idea of what to write about, or how to start, or how to submit anything that anyone would even want to read ..... not so sure about the chance of that happening.
In other news, I'm doing well.
Really, really well.
Yes, I still miss him.
Both of them.
Yes, I still love him.
Both of them.
But life is good.
Specifically, my life is good.
Other than a couple of things here and there, and that one huge wish that won't ever come true .... I'm happy.
I am in a good place.
Really good.
Back in 2009 (yes, the second year .... the year the shock wore off) .... I never would've believed I'd think those words, let alone write them.
Back in 2009 .... all I wanted to do .... is die.
I've come a long way.
So I'm here to let all of you know, without a shadow of a doubt, that if I can be in a good place after all of that blackness, after all of that .... for lack of a better word .... HELL .... you can, too.
Eventually.
One breath at a time.
Happy Thursday, Peeps.
:)
8 comments:
I think I am now where you were in 2009
How Cool - I think I might do that too - five plus years of blog. Just for me. Who did you use?? Is an online spot? Very neat.
Glad you are feeling better - I have been thinking a lot about you these days and sending golden light. love and hugs,
I'm so glad that you're in a good place. Obviously the right decision was made.
When you mentioned what a rough place you were in in 2009 I remembered reading your blog during that time. My husband had just died in March of that year I remember almost feeling comforted by reading about how tough things were for you. I was feeling just as bad and knowing I wasn't alone made me feel a little less lonely and crazy. But as I move out of the dense, black fog of new widowhood and get ready to enter my third (gasp!) year, I appreciate knowing that life can indeed get back to good. I've had glimpses of it, and I so look forward to a good life being a regular feature at our house. Thanks for lighting the way, Janine!
Suzann, I used www.blurb.com. I checked into a couple of other sites but liked this one.
Barbara, I am so very sorry that you are in the darkest of dark places right now. Just keep breathing. And don't expect anything. Just put one foot in front of the other .... when you can. When you can't .... that's ok. Just lie down until you feel like getting up. You will. Eventually.
And know that you are in my thoughts and prayers.
Janine
Suddenwidow ....I know. It's so hard to believe it's been 3 years. I'm glad to know that I could help you feel a little less crazy and a little less alone. That's the one thing that makes all of this worth going through, if that makes any sense. My heart is always touched when I know that I've connected with someone .... that maybe I've helped them get through one more minute of this hell on earth.
I'm thankful that I can sometimes be a little bit of light in the inky blackness, just as you are a light to me when you tell me that.
Thinking of you so much,
Janine
Janine, if there is a publisher out there that has been through this, they willl know that your blogs through out these years are VERY helpful. You have a knack to write and help. You seem to be able to say exactly what we are feeling just the right way. I truely believe having these published would be a wonderful thing for all widows and widowers. Thank you so very much for your help. Hugs to you, Lorry
Thanks, Lorry. I'm just thankful that I can be of some small help to others going through this. I know it's God, not "wasting" Jim's death, nor my horrible experiences through it all.
On another note ..... to Suzann and anyone else interested in publishing your blogs .... I think I used the wrong address.
Go to www.blog2print.com.
That's what I used ..... very, very easy.
Good luck!
I, for one think you can write. This is such a neat way to keep all of those memories that wrote down. The books will be good for you and for your children. You have helped so many by your transparency. You have helped me appreciate my husband and my life more than I already did. God has used you in a big way and I believe He will continue to do so. Thanks for sharing...
Janine, what a great idea. I am going to see if Megan and Cliff want to do that for Jill's blog. I would love to have hers in book form. Also, thank you for your honesty in your blog, you help me more than you know. Love you and hope to meet you in person one day. Jeri
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