United Airlines struck again.
Daughter #1 called me at 5:00 a.m. to say that, for some unexplained reason, United told her when she got to the airport that her flight was being delayed four hours.
Meaning, there was no way she would make her connecting to flight.
So they transferred her to American Airlines.
And to a totally different airport.
She started in Baltimore and then had to take a cab to D.C. to Reagan Airport.
And when she showed up at the American counter, they told her that her next flight would be delayed by 3 hours, meaning that she would get to Dallas at the exact same time her connecting flight was taking off for Cabo.
So she is not in Cabo.
And no one even offered to explain why they were delaying (and in United's case, canceling several) flights.
She is now in Houston, at home with my mom.
She'll hopefully fly down here tomorrow.
Hopefully.
The boys and I made it down here without any incidents.
Surprisingly.
Well, if you don't count the screaming toddler 2 rows in front of me. The one who's mom just kept her in the seat, never walking her around or anything to try to quiet her.
But .... at least we made it.
The weather is beautiful. Not as warm as Houston, nor anywhere near as humid.
Once we got to the condo and unpacked we took a taxi to Wal-Mart.
Yep, Wal-Mart. A great place to load up on groceries .... and many different types of tequila.
Is this a great country or what?!
:)
Now we're relaxing in the condo, after walking around a bit and exploring the grounds, the different pools and restaurants and the beach.
I'm tired.
I'm more than tired .... I'm drained.
I'd like to ask for prayers, please.
I'm struggling a bit with something and it's draining me.
Hell, I'm struggling a lot more than a bit.
I've tried to hide it, to ignore it, to pretend like it's not there.
But oh, it's there.
I can't say what it is, but I feel like I've been a fool .... and I feel very, very used.
And very, very stupid.
And probably more hurt than I think I've ever felt in my life.
I need to be able let it go, but the hurt is deep.
So deep that even if/when it heals, there were will be scars.
Especially because I could never fathom doing this to another human being.
Ever.
I want to get past it and enjoy this week with my children.
But I don't think there's a way to "get past it". Not quickly anyway.
Nor easily.
But maybe I can put it on a shelf for this week .... and leave it there until I'm back home
and ready to deal with it again.
So please pray for me.
Please pray that I can do that.
Please pray that I don't allow this pain and hurt to affect my children.
I can't do this on my own.
I need God to do it for me, or through me.
And that takes prayer.
Lots and lots of prayer.
From lots and lots of people.
Thank you, my friends.
Thanks for the love you've shown me time and time again ....
and the compassion.
Especially those of you who've never really met me.
I appreciate you.
And I appreciate your prayers.
More than you know.
10 comments:
You are always in my prayers but will add an additional few words.
Janine...lay it down.
You know how...and you know why.
Your kids need you.
I love you so much my sweet sister.
I pray that God gives you peace that passes all understanding. He will fight your battles and make things right. Have a wonderful week!
lay it down...and pray that it shrinks a bit while on the shelf. God can do amazing things, and can use even this for His glory. Enjoy your week and your children.
prayers for you as always. Place it in God's hand for now - and enjoy the week with your children.
OK I'm done lurking. My prayers are with you and for you! You are such an inspiration and I've admired you from the sidelines for quite a while.I know God will touch your soul and heart and heal you so you can continue to shine!!!
Janine - I can't say I know how you feel because no one ever completely can, but oh how I resonated with the top post and the anger and hatred... I so felt that with my breakups (again and again) with D, and some of the horrific things he said, and did, and left me with forever. I just wish I'd gotten out sooner, because it sort of killed some of the ability to just fall in love and trust I think... some of my hopefulness. And then I have to say to myself: NO. I will NOT let him or anyone take that from me. It takes time to heal, and forgive, and let go. But I'll be damned if any man takes anything good from me. I had to use the pain to learn and it sounds like you are... not to settle for a man who can't act like a real, godly man. That is a good lesson. You deserve true, deep, abiding, joyful, peaceful love. And that is my prayer for you and for me. :) Sending love, light and sunshine (but sounds like you have a lot of that in Cabo!) Big Hugs, W.
Envelope the love you are surrounded by this week with the presence of your amazing kids -- all of whom you gain more closeness to Jim, I'm sure. Try, as hard as you can not to allow the negativity of those who are undeserving to invade this special time. We'll all help you deal with it next week, honey. Just keep looking at those amazing 6 faces that are surrounding you -- you'll gain all kinds of strength from them. Huge hugs!
Okay -- I sounded drunk in that last post! I meant to say *all of whom make you feel much closer to Jim". Time for a breath of air, I think!
Let God take care of it. Lay it down for now, and enjoy your trip with your beautiful children. Breathe! Live, laugh, love!
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