This is another picture from my 40th birthday party. Jim and a few wonderful friends. I love these people. Today was a very yucky, rainy day. So Daughter #1 and I stayed home and watched movies together (and did a bit of work, too). It was nice. I'm sorry to say that I missed a friend's birthday lunch (I'm sorry CT). But I wasn't in the mood for a birthday lunch. So, rather than go and paste on a smile, I decided to stay home with my daughter. I think it was a good choice.
I have decided to renovate the kitchen (the entire house, eventually). Jim and I had decided to do that but we kept putting it off. I am now ready. I've chosen a decorator and she and Daughter #1 and I went granite shopping on Friday. And appliance shopping. It was good. I'm looking forward to changing the kitchen and family room area this summer. As soon as Son #1 graduates we are tearing things up.
My children are less enthused. I can understand that they don't want things to change. But I need for things to change. I cannot keep them the way they were, because actually, things will never be the same again. So I need change. I need a new look. I need something different. And besides, they're all going to leave anyway. I want to enjoy my home.
So this gives me something to look forward to. Something to hopefully make sure that I do wake up on the 28th, though there are no guarantees.
Son #3 washed my car yesterday. He did an awesome job ---- inside and out. It looks wonderful.
Have I told you that I have great children? Because I do ..... just in case you hadn't heard.
So Son #1 has his senior prom in 2 weeks (I forgot to add his prom to the "event" list). He has a tux .... yay!!! But he has yet to order a corsage. For those of you who have read this blog since September you know that he completely failed to order one for the winter formal. And so was forced to buy one at twice the price --- on the DAY OF the dance. So one would think that he would take care of this quite earlier, would one not? Well, one would be wrong. He seems to be in no hurry to get this done, in spite of my prodding and pushing. Or maybe because of my pushing and prodding.
He has to show that he is in complete control --- whether he is or not. All I know is that I'm going to throttle him if he doesn't get one ordered in the next day or so. After all, I'm coming from the female perspective. The one that says, "You'd better get a nice corsage and not just a stinking cheap carnation because you failed to plan ahead!!
Daughter #1 is busy apartment-hunting in Cambridge (over the internet). She is quickly learning that an apartment advertised at 9:00 a.m. is not guaranteed to be around by noon on the same day. It's a totally different world.
And she is now in a world of debt..... also a totally different world. She sent in all of her student loan apps. She's on her own for grad school, something she's always known and is doing surprisingly well with. She is my number 1 cheapskate. That girls abhors spending her own money. Always has. So this should be an interesting year. All she asks of me is that I come up once a season and take her clothes shopping. I think I can handle that. :)
Well, that's it for tonight. Thank you for each and every comment. You don't know how much they mean to me.
So. Very. Much.
17 comments:
Good evening my darling daughter. I've been dreading May. I know how hard this month is going to be for you. I wish there was something I could do to make it easier for you. I wish I could be there on the 28th. I don't know what I could do, but I wish I could be there just to hold you. At least you'll have all six kids there. You'll be in my thoughts and prayers every day this month, not that that's anything new, but especially this month. Maybe we could come down a few days early for the graduation. We'll see what we can do. I love you dearly. Know that you are in my thoughts always.
If you wanna come up here there's a McKinley Mac waiting for you, and maybe some Sweet Maui Onion potatoe chips!!!
Little Bro
Early would be great. Of course, you have that jerk to deal with so I know that you might not be able to come. And no, I don't mean David!! :)
Love you.
Ooooooh, a McKinley Mac ....... tempting --- very, very tempting. And I can't believe you threw the chips in there, too!!!!!! You have no heart!!!!
But I love you anyway ---- why? I don't know --- I guess it's cuz you're so gosh-darned cute. Or, at least you used to be.
:)
As much as I look at the photos and read your blog faithfully every day, it is bone chilling to see a photo of me with Jim. Somehow it seems so much more incredibly real and it makes me know that the photos you post each day of Jim and your family must rock your world. I know that, but I don't think I KNOW that.
You are in my thoughts so much this month. Anniversaries of any kind are terribly difficult whether you chose the death (divorce) or not(losing your love). Let others hold you. I am doing it from Ohio.
Have I told you recently that I love you? I do!
May is going to be so very hard. If there is any possibility of even a tiny glimmer of hope among all this sadness may be that you are surrounded by people who love you so much!
I pray that the love so many of us share for you and the kids (and Jim) is able to help you through the next 28 days, 28 weeks, 28 months, 28 years...
love you, K
K -- I love you.
J
It was great talking with you today! We'll have to tell D about our "Mexico Plan" :)
J, you are a great mom...and your presence at the kid's events will mean the world to them. They all know and share your sadness at Jim not being there, but you DO have great kids and they will appreciate that you are stepping up for them.
I think I know what you mean about needing "change", but I think that since you and Jim were planning to remodel anyway, it's also a continuation of his wishes. He'd be proud of you!
You SURE you don't want to trade me #2s??? {grin}
I love you!
Lis
It was great talking with you today! We'll have to tell D about our "Mexico Plan" :)
J, you are a great mom...and your presence at the kid's events will mean the world to them. They all know and share your sadness at Jim not being there, but you DO have great kids and they will appreciate that you are stepping up for them.
I think I know what you mean about needing "change", but I think that since you and Jim were planning to remodel anyway, it's also a continuation of his wishes. He'd be proud of you!
You SURE you don't want to trade me #2s??? {grin}
I love you!
Lis
I just wanted to say hi. Sorry May is going to be such a sucky month. I will pray for some good things to bless your days to make you laugh & smile so the hard is made just a wee bit better. Man I'm tired its midnite & I'm at lax & have 20 hrs or so before my final destination! But I'm excited :)
Getting resettled back in Milan after a month in the states and catching up on the computer, which means catching up on you. May is always an overwhelming month in our family, too. Liz asked if she could have her own day instead of sharing it as in past years. She feels 25 is a big deal. Change is good, and I'm sure there will be much humor in your remodel experience as only you can tell us. You're in my thoughts and prayers.
I am on pain meds, so warning if this doesn't make sense...don't be surprised. I am excited that you are going to remodel. We did this a few years ago with our kitchen and I'm so happy we did. When you spend so much time in your home...sometimes you just need a change. I am wanting to do this to our bedroom. I spent so much time in bed last spring that I feel like it was my hospital bed. Once we have the money saved up, I'll be ready to paint, etc. I pray strength for you everyday and especially for these events to come in May.
Amy
HI Amy,
You sounded just fine on the meds! I'm praying for you, too. Sounds like the surgery went well? I'll be glad to see you again!
Love,
J
I'm so glad you are going to remodel, it will do wonders for your spirit and make things look new and fresh. It's for you and not for your kids...they will like the new stuff eventually...none of us like change. You sound like such a good mother and wife and a strong woman who knows where her strength is coming from. Your postings are a blessing to me..glad I found your site..blessings on your week. Will be praying....
Thank you, Mary Lou.
:)
WHAT???!!! We're going to McDonald's for our anniversary??!!! AND we're bringing Maui Onion chips instead of buying fries??!!!
Yeah, it IS a good thing he's CUTE J !!!!
Jim told him at our wedding to treat me like a queen!! I don't think he got it!!!
JK!!!
We love you and we are thinking and praying for you daily.
(you better pray for your lil bro if he takes me to Mickey D's! LOL)
XOXOXOXOXOX
K in AK
A new kitchen... how wonderful. Once everything is all set in place... brand spankin' new, your kids will be thrilled and "embrace" the new.
Well, here's hoping!
To Son #2, enjoy your Prom! Daughter #1, good luck with the apt. hunt in Cambridge. Our nanny friend, Raven, lived there for 5 years and it is hard... however, if you need some leads, e-mail me! I don't want to get too pushy!
Love your post.
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