I'm going insane ....

 ..... slowly, but surely.

My hip has been horrible today.  It's like a massive infected tooth that throbs and aches non-stop, driving you to the brink of insanity.

I'm at the brink.

And the boys seem bent on pushing me completely over.  

It's just been one of those days.

I took Son #3 to see "Up" today, with K and two of her children and my mom and D.

I had great expectations for it.

I was disappointed.

I found it irritating.

And quite sad in the beginning.

Too sad for a children's movie.

Daughter #3's dog escaped last night and I have no idea where she is.  It seems that a woman saw her, got close enough to read D3's phone number on her dog tag and then called D3 and left a message.  But she didn't keep the dog .... she just saw her.

Go figure.

So she's still gone.

And D2's cat is still pooping in the house.

Insanity ...... at the brink of.  Indeed.

On the way home from the movie K and I watched two cars slam into each other.  It wasn't pretty.  Two teenage girl drivers.  Lots and lots of traffic.

We pulled over and I quickly went up to the first car, whose driver was in shock and was crying because of the pain in her neck and the shock of the wreck.

I called 911 while talking to her through the window and trying to keep her calm.  The other driver and her friend got out of their car and came over to talk to me and to check on this girl.  They were both fine.

In the end, so was the first driver.  I'm sure her neck will be sore for a few days .... but she didn't have to leave in the ambulance so that was good.

It's so strange to watch a wreck happen.  You see it in slow motion .... and keep thinking that it's really not going to happen ..... one of the cars will get out of the way.

But they didn't.

It could have been a lot worse .... so I'm thankful that everyone seemed to be OK.  We stayed until the police came and seemed to have a handle on everything.  

I just kept thinking that I would want someone to stay with my daughter if she had been one of those upset girls.

The boys and I went to dinner with K and her two youngest kids.

The brink of insanity got a wee bit smaller at that restaurant.  :)

Really .... just one of those days.

Remember that self-induced coma I talked about a few months ago?  And how great I thought it would be?  Just for a few months ..... or heck, even one month.

I still think so.

Just a month of rest .... nothing but rest.  

Sleep most of the time, food when I need it, no responsibilities, nobody looking to me for answers or money or decisions ..... or anything.

It's kind of scary to look out on the horizon of what lies ahead in your life ..... and to see no rest. Ever.

Every single decision from here on out will be mine.

Alone.

Big one.  Little ones.  Medium ones.

All mine.

And mine alone.

That.  Totally.  Sucks.

And makes me very, very tired.

I think I'll go to bed now.

And hopefully at least dream about being in a coma.

Good night, Peeps.