A Good Day .....

.... has been had by all. Daughter #2 and Son #1 came last night and stayed the night. It was great to see everyone. Everyone went to bed around 10:30, except for me, who didn't fall asleep until after 1:30 a.m. Which means that I was the last person up this morning. I HATE being the last person up!
But we had a great breakfast and then D#3 and a friend arrived. It was great to see them. We just hung out today and laughed and told old, embarrassing stories about growing up. The girls swam so that they can start on their tans for Cabo. After lunch we all went into town to a well-known chocolate shop.i was more interested in the antique fair across the street so some of us chose antiques over chocolate (not a difficult decision in my book).
The girls had to return to Waco for a birthday party. I found some great albums, yes, as in the record-player kind. And a great piece of furniture that's very different and very cool for storing collectbles. Son #1 asked where I would put it. Typical guy.... like that matters!!!
:)
Tonight my brother made fried halibut (from Alaska) and it was very good. His wife, K, made an awesome pasta salad so dinner was a hit.

We're now settling in to watch "You've Got Mail", a very nice, family friendly movie.

We may be off to see Men in Black tomorrow.

Today I turned to my journal to write/pray some feelings out, and I came across three different devotions that God had ready for me.
He really is good.
All the time.

It's just that we don't always see Him there.

The first one was entitled, "Wait" and was about waiting on God to answer your prayer. Not waiting impatiently, but waiting with courage and strength.
The second devotion was about letting God make the choice, rather than rushing things and making my own choice, which might be a "good choice", but God has "the best choice" in mind for us/me..
The third one was about keeping your eyes focused on God while waiting for him.

So all three of these spoke straight to my heart, at a time when I felt myself wavering and getting depressed. Thankfully, I turned to God earlier, rather than later in the day, so I immediately felt much better.

Life is far too short to continue to worry about when the bad things might show up again. When I weigh the "good" against the "bad", though I want the "good" very, very much, all of the "good" cannot outweigh the "bad" .... and never knowing when the bad will occur, but sure that it will.
I have learned to become adept at "walking on egg shells" to avoid the bad at all cost and I've come to find that walking on them isn't fair to a relationship either, for either person.
I should be able to feel safe enough to have a differing opinion.
I haven't.
All I wanted was peace, so that the "bad stuff" never happened again. But I don't have the power to control that. Nor should I.
I want to feel loved. Which I wasn't.
And safe. Which I didn't.

I guess that's settling. I don't want to settle, but I don't mind working on a relationship to make it better. Both people have to be willing to do the work.

And in the meantime, I'll plan for a great week with my 6 children.
I can't wait.
Woooo-hooooo!!

Happy Saturday/Sunday, Peeps.
:)