OK, so does this make up for no post yesterday?
The kitten is a female and she's grey with some stripes. Right now we're going with the name Colby/Colbie, not sure of the spelling yet. Someone (JT) suggested Jolie, so we're considering that, too. She is very calm and very cuddly. Jovie hates her and seems to now hate me. It's a good thing she's going home tomorrow.
Today I spent an hour on the phone with Social Security. Did you know that you have to push "1" to speak English to someone in our government?! And that you have to make an appointment to talk to someone on the phone? Yep. The woman was very nice -- I'd hate to have that job -- calling people to start "death benefits". What a curious and totally asinine phrase --- like there can be any benefit to someone's death. It was a bit surreal, though you'd think I'd be used to the surreal by now. No, not yet. I'm guessing I'll never get used to it.
This week has been difficult. I seem to be in some kind of limbo. I've had an off tennis week so that's frustrating. And I've had some doubts about working. I love working at our church and would hate to leave the people that I work with. In fact, I think that would be a totally bad idea. But I don't seem to know what I should be doing and I don't like the thought of people having expectations of me -- especially when I'd rather just stay in bed some mornings. But I have yet to do that. Hopefully it's just "one of those" weeks.
The local paper had an article about the school board elections today. So far there are 2 people running for Jim's position. That is very, very difficult and seems so wrong. He should be there. He should be leading this board and continuing to do the fantastic job that he did. He was only 6 months into his second term. And he was the president. He had so much more to do and so many children to help.
Maybe I should avoid the paper.
One step forward, 5 steps back.
I'm tired of the back.
5 comments:
Well as far as what you should do about work, or anything else for htat matter, I was always told tat when you are in doubt about something, do nothing. You can't make good decisions when your head aint right. Yes, it may be a long time before your head is right, but if God wants something else of you, I believe he will blatantly show you.
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I love you tons J!!
Little Bro
The kitten is adorable,I like Colbie/Colbey. Clay suggests the name Kashmir. Which was actually his second suggestion- his first was Geddy, until I told him the kitten was a girl.
I'm sorry the past few days have been so hard.
I love you,K
I love your new kitten. How can we be so entertained looking at a kitten sleeping. When you see them sleeping in such unusual contorted positions, you can't do anything but smile.
When I saw the paper today I was hoping that your paper would have gotten soaked and you threw it away. I know for me this is another thing that I have learned--when someone that was so involved in the community--their name still appears even months after they are gone--and we forget that the family relives a little of the tragedy over again.
Back to the kitten--I like looking at the pictures. It reminds me of past years when I had the furry creatures while I was growing up. Our pets seem to know our moods, and when we need something to comfort us--they never mind being the one that we hold. Pretty cool how God connected all that!!
I hope that you know that you are being prayed for throughout the day.
I love the name Colbie for her Janine. I think the -ie ending is more feminine and less cheese-like (LOL). I am so glad you like her and I hope she makes you smile with her cuteness and antics you will surely be witnessing soon!
I agree with you 100% that it should be Jim still filling his position. He was fantastic and nobody is EVER going to be able to replace him.
Love,
MK
Janine--I have a possible reason for the past few days being so hard. I'm not one to see satan behind every rock (although after reading "This Present Darkness" maybe I should), but maybe, just maybe, he heard you singing "Blessed be the Name of the Lord" the other day. That's the last thing he wants from you. He thought he had a victory, and now knows he doesn't... and he's not too happy about that. He also doesn't want you to feel like you can be effective in ministry, because he knows you can and are.
I don't think you should stop counting blessings to make it easier on him. I don't think you should quit your job to make it easier on him. I agree with Little Bro--listen for God's voice in all of this--He'll make the next move abundantly clear, and until He does, wait.
And as you wait, know that you are loved. Susan
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