Things are Becoming .....

.... a bit more balanced.

Thankfully.

The meds kicked in faster than I thought.

Thankfully.

It's been a good week.

It's been a great week with the Sons.

Thankfully.

And tonight D#2 and S#1 drove in from camp .... to stay about 18 hours, which is sad, but at least they're here. I haven't seen them in a month or so.

I love my kids.

I love seeing Jim in them.

In each one of them.

Thank you for all of the comments, e-mails, texts and phone calls. It feels so good to know that you're out there. And that so many of you care.

And that I am not alone.

Unfortunately ... for those of you here on this path with me ..... and fortunately ... for me.

I still miss him.

Very much.

No matter how good things are going.

Now matter how balanced my brain is.

No matter.

I will never .... ever .... stop missing him.

Or stop loving him.

And yes ..... every once in a while I am still overcome with the thought .... "I really cannot believe this.".

Every once in a while.

Today the question on Widow's Voice was "does grief ever end?".

One person thought it did for most people.

How could it?

Really?

It ebbs and flows over the days, months and years ... but I don't think it will ever truly end.

Ever.

Not as long as I'm breathing.

I may love another man .... but I will never stop loving Jim.

Nor will he ever stop loving his wife.

Kind of bittersweet .... isn't it?

Yes, things are more balanced.

But maybe not totally.

Yet.

I leave for San Diego on Sunday.

To spend time with J, L and S.

And then to attend Camp Widow.

I am looking forward to this week.

Very, very much.

I think the timing is good.

My wonderful mom is coming in again to stay with the boys.

I am so thankful that she and D are so close now.

They have both been God-sends.

I am blessed.

Well, that's it for now.

Sorry that I haven't gotten any further on the pics.

Life ..... you know .... happens.

Happy Friday, Peeps.

Have a good weekend.

:)