Our history.
Son #2 graduated tonight.
He did it.
In spite of .... so much.
He.
Did.
It.
On this day.
This once very happy day.
This day that used to stand for love, commitment, the future ....
has stood for what was, and what will never be again.
Until today.
Today it stood for what can be.
I am very proud of him.
And I think Jim is, too.
This day, like all of the "big event days" .... has passed.
It is now tomorrow.
Another big day lived through.
Another day that brought tears ..... and joy.
Another day in which Jim should have been here .... by my side; telling Son #2 how proud he is of him and how much he is loved.
A day that should have been .... so much .... more.
A day that was a day.
A day that is now a memory.
A memory of a different kind .... now.
In spite of how happy I am now, how content I have learned to become, how my future is starting to look lighter than grey ...... these "big days" wear me out.
They exhaust me.
Mentally more than physically.
They make me want to go to bed for a week .... and never leave my room.
Just for a week, but yet .... still a week.
I find myself mourning what was ....
and what should have been ....
and what will never be ....
on these days.
Yet .... on this day .... he did it.
4 comments:
Posting a comment so you will know that someone is reading your awesome writings and to apologize...as Trent and I were celebrating our 30th anniversary, I never stopped to think about those who will not be able to celebrate their 30th, or graduations. Your writings make people think.
Love ya,
Terri
Congratulations to Son#2....he will make a great service man to our country. He comes from great stock. The boys all look so much like Jim and you too....your children are a testimony to your and Jim's love for each other and for them. You have taught so many of us how to cherish the memories of each day.
Congrats to you and to you son - I have no doubt that Jim is indeed VERY proud, not only of son#2, but of you as well.
oh and I forgot to say; you and son#2 inspire me as I struggle day to day with my son, his school refusal, behavior issues etc; Hopeful now that maybe WE will make it to graduation day as well some time - right now just hoping to make it to the end of 7th grade in 16 more days.........
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