It Was The Only Word ......

...... that describes how I feel.

So I put it on Facebook ...... where someone else would know how I feel.

Like shit.
That's how I feel.

So much for the month being easier this time around.
At least I made it longer.

I am so sick of this.
As I wrote to another widowed friend earlier ...... why can't we just put in our "time" and then be done with this?!  It's what most people expect anyway.
That we grieve for 12 months and then we're done.

I wish it were that easy.
I wish it were over.
I hate this with every fiber of my being.

I want to be done hurting.
I want to be done being sad.
I WANT TO BE DONE CRYING at the drop of a hat!!!

I.
Want.
To.
Be.
Done.

And yet, it seems that I am not.
Damn.