..... still sucked.
Don't get me wrong, of course I had a good day, being in Turkey and all.
But still ......
We were awakened with "This is the Captain wishing all of our father's a wonderful and very happy Father's Day!".
I had almost forgot.
And then the cabin next to ours has its door decorated by the kids there for their dad. Very nice and almost heart-warming.
Almost.
But still .....
My kids' Dad is not here.
They do not celebrate that day.
They have no doors to decorate.
And yes, I am crying as I type this.
Even here in the middle of the Mediterranean.
I miss him so very much.
And I ache for their loss of him in their lives .... for the huge hole that he left in each of them.
I can only pray that each one of our amazing children will be able to fill that hole with their memories of him and all that he taught them. I pray that each doesn't try to fill that hole with anything less.
On another note ..... today is my birthday.
Yes, in spite of my trying to get away with not letting it count (as I'm out of the country and all), it seems that other people are remembering it.
Dang it.
It's been a great day.
We're at sea today so I mainly just relaxed by the pool.
All day.
Not to worry, I spent some time in the shade.
Some.
I am now sitting on our balcony, thinking about getting ready for dinner. D1 and I are heading to a wonderful Asian restaurant tonight. I'm looking forward to it.
Oh .... and for those who've asked, we are on a Celebrity Cruise Lines ship .... the Equinox.
It's a new ship .... it only started sailing last year. I didn't realize that when I booked it, I only knew that it was stopping at the right ports for us.
I must say that this is THE best cruise line I've used (I've used 3 others in the past).
I will save my critique of our cruise for another day ..... it's time for me to get ready to go to dinner.
And then tomorrow ..... we invade Athens.
So to speak.
Happy Monday, Peeps.
:)
4 comments:
Wow, now I need pie. Why? Because pie makes it all better. Plus, this was my first Father's Day without my dad. Is there a single store that didn't put out a Father's Day ad?
The end of your post is awesome. Birthdays don't count if you're in a foreign country. My friends and I decided this 10 years ago. Since then, we have one friend who has only aged 5 years because her "mad skills" in planning European vacations around her birthday. The rest of us are going to turn 30 this year, and she happily reminds us that she is still in her mid-20s.
i'm sure with the time change you're asleep now, but i'm wishing you a happy birthday with D1. Were you on land or sea for your asian dinner? (as in, how does one pick an asian restaurant in a foreign country that is not in asia...or do turks consider themselves asians? just a little anthropological question for you on your 50th.)
Also, praying that your kids will all feel their heavenly Father filling the gaps left by the loss of their earthly father.
Thanks for sharing your thoughts on Father's Day. It sucks for me too since we are approaching our second year anniversary. I found this article and though it is not my religious belief, I felt the sentiment behind it was universal (http://www.obit-mag.com/articles/making-something-ou--of-nothing)
I am excited to hear you are on the Equinox. We sail her sister ship the Eclipse in February. I look forward to reading your critique when you get back ... and any little tips you have on cruising.
...a belated Happy Birthday. May each new year bring new blessings into your life.
Cheers,
Roma
Janine, I am a bit behind in catching up with blogs, and as I read this, I too remember how Father's Day was for me and our boys. My heart continues to ache for them and we no longer celebrate Father's Day either, for that matter, I don't celebrate much any more. I do hope you had a nice birthday and many more. Hugs to you, Lorry
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