Jim and Son #2. I am feeling very edgy. On the edge of wanting to sometimes yell, sometimes cry, sometimes just go sit in a closet.
I am having a difficult time not being able to have any contact with Son #2. I want to call him and ask how he's doing. I want to ask him how his hair (or lack thereof) looks. I want to ask if he's sleeping OK, if he likes his DI, if he likes the boys he's with, etc. etc. etc.
I am not helicopter parent ... not at all. But this is driving me to the edge for some reason. I guess because it's not college --- because he's only 16. And because I didn't get to see where he'll live, sleep, eat, etc.
So I wait until his "graduation" in 2 weeks.
And grit my teeth.
And consider taking a Xanax so that I don't bite someone's head off!!
I'll keep you posted.
I had my first holiday event at the lake this weekend since Jim died. I think there were 16 of us sleeping in the house last night. It was fun.
Then we had about 16 more people join us today. It was also fun.
Mostly.
I really, really missed Jim.
He loved these things.
But I have awesome friends and they helped take care of everything.
Back to work tomorrow.
Hopefully no one will get bitten.
I make no promises.
:)
5 comments:
I thought about you quite a bit yesterday. I know we do not know each other at all, but the Lord has laid you on my heart is what I do know and I do know that I prayed for you more than once yesterday. I understand your heart totally. May today be better.
hey sis! I'm so glad you had your friends surrounding you over the holiday weekend. I know Jim was watching and smiling. I can't even begin to imagine what it's like. As for son#2 I can't imagine that either. I love you J. I am constantly thinking of you and I pray you have a better week.
Thank you, Mary Lou. I feel as if we do "know" each other, and I so appreciate your love and prayers.
Janine
I love you D!!!
And yay for the call of the day!!!!!!
:)
I am praying for you and son #2. You are one courageous woman to continue to put one foot in front of the other and make the tough decisions and follow through. Can't even begin to imagine all that you're going through. Love you girl and I will continue praying for your family.
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